Impressionable

When you’re a kid you watch James Bond and you want to be a spy, and then you hear how much Daniel Craig gets paid and you want to be an actor.

Its what a good piece of work does, move you, but for me I think it works too well. I’ll watch something and feel inspired to work hard and earn money and then watch something else and want to quit working and go travelling. Thats far too big a variance in fundamental world view for there to be any truth to either.

It doesn’t even have to be something thats trying to inspire me, anything could start having an impression on me if it catches me at the right time.

     How...interesting

     How...interesting

I should watch more things that inspire me the right way, but to do that I need the inspiration to be inspired, and to do that I need the inspiration to look for the inspiration to be inspired, and to do that I need the inspiration to look for the inspiration to look for the inspiration to be inspired, and to do that I need some sort of brain drug.

   A genuinely good brain drug. No joke here.

   A genuinely good brain drug. No joke here.

Even after all that searching for the right impression, the truth is I’m still only being inspired to do something that I actually kind of want to already do. If I watch fifty films on car racing and one romantic comedy I won’t be running any red lights but I will end up hopelessly in love for 12 seconds before realising I don’t have a comical character flaw that can be cleanly resolved by a budding new romance.

                                My flaws are gonna take a lot more than a girlfriend to fix

                                My flaws are gonna take a lot more than a girlfriend to fix

It happens to me all the time:

  • Watch one comedian and one director talk about their love of music and decide I’ve been listening to too many podcasts recently and everyone I love in comedy or film has such a deep appreciation of music that I’m inspired to listen to more tunes, then I realise I missed the latest Hardcore History.
  • I watch one advertisement about someone in a foreign country learning the language and go online and buy a book about learning languages only to forget why I ordered that book when it arrives on my doorstep.
  • I listen to a Daniel Kitson storytelling album and feel inspired to capture more humanity in what I do, to make any story I tell resonate more deeply and truly with the human experience. That and figure out how to speak in sentences that are lyrically honest, like a young poet speaking to his first love, rathe r than dully monotone, like a an english tutor hiding his disappointment at never writing a novel by pedantically correcting the grammatical errors of students more creative than he ever was.

So if I feel like getting up and doing something, even though I might think I’m too old or over the hill, theres only one thing to do.

     Give up and watch the greatest movie series of all time instead

     Give up and watch the greatest movie series of all time instead